LIFE& Competition

I know... I know... It's  not the fanciest title  but let's pretend like it doesn't matter... XD 

Well today is another day. Thank God I'm still here. Quite a few days since I last update this blog.  

When I decided to create this blog, I wanna do this so that I can  look back what I was thinking for my 2 weeks MC. So, I must write something.

This morning I actually did something that I regret doing but I don't wanna think about it too deeply. 

All  the days of our live, we always compete for many things. People compete for the highest position, the biggest bank account, the prettiest, the thinnest and the list goes on and on.

As I'm a bit older now, I began to think, what's after that? Are those competitions worth-it?

Yesterday I read some phrase from the bible,

"Bertandinglah dalam pertandingan iman yang benar& rebutlah hidup yang kekal".  From what I can literally think of,  it means "compete in true faith competition and gain eternal salvation".

I put it on my phone to remind me what I should really do in life.

Life is short. We never know  how brief we can possess all we have rite now.  Family? Friends? Boyfriend/Girlfriend? Money? Job? All those things can dissappear in just a blink of an eye. 

Nothing's forever. Except for God's love.  Then, when comes to things about Heaven, it is so real. Many are invited to be part of His Kingdom but  only few that manage to go through.
Therefore, this IS the kind of competition that I really wanna participate... 

Musix& Indie

I love music. But, growing up in a not-so-musical family (eventhough my Dad, brothers& sister have their magical hands with guitars but still, they are not musicians or really addicted to musics), I never had a chance to learn playing guitar or any kind of musical instrument. And that's actually making my heart sooo like... "Bidanya...xtau men apa2"

Yea... I do sing...a lot! I sing at the church, choir(any choir that I can join), karaoke, room, bathroom, toilet, bus, car, etc.
But singing alone doesn't soothe my musical heart.(quite silly choice of word kan.. antam jala...lol.)

I love ROCK musics. Bands? too many to mention.
Others, it really do depends on my mood. What I'll definitely go through in a song;
genre& lyric. We'll know whether the singer really sings his/her heart out because it touches soul.
But today, I wanna write about Indie musics.

I love Indie musics. Indie comes from the word "Independent" as in one person or a group of people is not associated in any form with any recording company.

And this is what I've Wiki-ed.

In popular music, independent music, often shortened to indie music or "indie", is a term used to describe independence from major commercial record labels and an autonomous, Do-It-Yourself approach to recording and publishing.


Well, the thought of writing about musics and Indie is because I've always enjoy browsing YouTube. The thing I always want to search for is new video from random people. I dunno whether anyone noticed, but there are sure a lot of talented people in this world especially in our dearest Malaysia.


One day, I hope I can play in a band. Not necessarily as a singer but as a guitarist or drummer or apa2 la.
If I can finally rest my fingers on guitar frets or drum sticks, I'll post it... I'll sure be freakin happy...hoho.

CHICKEN POX - Hari 7

OKAY...
mo dijadikan crita, hari ni genap seminggu aku kena cacar air a.k.a Chicken Pox. Same boring day juga.
Progress... ok la. Kering sdh mga2 blisters. Hrp2 teda yg baru la. Cik Somphong ckp, "ms terkopek la(mgkn dia mksdkan tu blisters) yg plg infectious, dulu... sy kena satu badan ow." 


Hmm... byk lg la dia ckp tp 0 ni fkrn ms tu. Terbayang2 la... camana la klu aku perlu turun blok. Kejamnya tu kan. Klu ganti, aku xkesah jg brp lama(actually plg adil ialah 2minggu la jg), asal dpt Christmas di Sabah la.


Baru jap td, aku msk bubur gandum la for the first time in my almost 20 years of living in this world..hohoho. Ok jg rasa dia. Tu pun pas tambah gula(ehsan org bilik sebelah, Anggerik 5 iaitu Neng& Wendy)& garam sikit la. Ada pandan ckit2 ni. 
Tp klu ada santan, mesti best kan. 


Aku teringin betul mo mkn ni sebab pernah makan bubur gandum patient masa posting Wad Psikiatrik dulu...hehe. Sedap ow. Trus SN Ong pun tanpa ditanya, memberitahu resipi dia. Krg santan ja ni yg aku buat ni. Nanti sihat, aku mo beli. =)


Bubur Gandum

300 ml santan cair 150 ml santan pekat 150 gm biji gandum (direbus) 100 gm gula melaka 30 gm sagu biji 50 gm gula pasir1 helai daun pandan Didihkan santan cair, gula melaka, sagu biji dan daun pandan. Apabila sagu masak, masukkan gula pasir, gandum dan santan pekat. Biarkan ia mendidih selama 2 minit dan hidangkan.

Ini la dia bubur gandum idaman

Merenung ke SCREEN, LIFE& MISTAKES

Bukan SCREEN band Malaysia yg 90-an rambut stail balah tangah aa...
tapi screen laptop. 
Boring ba d bilik. Betul2 terasing dari orang. Kuar pun mo p B.O(sbb x syiuk yg d bilik punya, mangkuk punya stail)& mau simpan pandan di almari luar(halau tikus kunun)
Thanks ar Keng sbb suggest benda ni. 

LIFE 
Aku bukan expressive as in suka meluah pa ja masalah. Aku penyimpan. Aku sebenarnya x banyak cakap sebab aku tau x banyak yg betul2 akan faham apa aku mau.  




Masa aku kecil2, 
Aku slalu tgk KEDEWASAAN sbg sesuatu yg best. Jd, aku mo cpat2 besar la kunun. Skg, aku betul2 rasa "Eee.. bidanya." Banyak pula mo fikir kan... Yg baru ko sedar, this world ain't about you and you alone... There are millions of eyes watching you. It feels like every moves are recorded as though you are an actor. Cannot make mistake. NO! or else it's either u'll be outcast or left crawl into the darkest pit of the universe and die. Itu yg dalam hati la. 


But if someone says, "REALITY CHECK! DING-DONG!~DING-DONG!"
Ya... secara realitasnya, aku ini dikit lagi 20 tahun. (Indon words that I randomly thinked of... so~so Indon moviemonger)


20 bukan setakat nombor.
Terlampau banyak la perkara yang seseorang yg berumur 20 tahun harus fikir. I'm a Christ believer. So, religious matter is definitely another issue. U see... there's a  crucial thing called The Commandment.
Dan bila ko(actually addressing to Christians) langgar tu, you should think, re-think, think again... ponder deeply apa yg kita belajar time Sunday School or Sabbath School tu. Over pla kan klu aku yg ajar. Bgs klu bgs betul... huhuhu~ Well, I'm still learning from my mistakes.




Everybody makes MISTAKES. That's why they put erasers on pencils.
Ada ba aku terrr...baca curhat(curahan hati) orang kan. Tapi, yang btul2 menggambarkan bahawa aku seorang yang teruk. Tapi, aku telah menerima tentang tu lama suda. Suda jg heart-to-heart, face-to-face...
Atleasr ada lega sikit...hmm... 


Aku bukan mcm orang lain... yg bertuah utk dapat@ ingat kata2 bermakna dari siapa2 seja... 
Tapi ada la 1, paling aku ingat ada satu kawan Mum aku pernah cakap masa aku budak2 lagi,
If u make mistake, u have to accept your defeat. begitu la lebih kurang yang dia ckp.

Thus, to everyone that I've ever HURT deeply, directly or indirectly in any ways, 

170910 - The attack of Varicella Zoster

I don't intend to make my blog seems DEAD SERIOUS but this is really happening! 

Varicella Zoster is the hooligan that cause CHICKEN POX that i'm having rite now..

Even now also, I'm still not ok k... My FACE? Tia payah cakap la... seriously like a junkie... hahaha~~But then it marks my 1st time blogging as suggested by Miss Dix tho' its been 4 days now with this chicken pox thingy... 

My friend said, "Kenapa la kau kena chicken pox ni? kenapa bukan lamb chop kaa... pork chop kaa.. Ni pa brg chicken2" Eventho' that question really shock me but it really cheers me up. XD

My EXPERIENCE so far... well... it's about pantang, PANTANG n PANTANGS.

I NEVER thought I'll miss taking shower, miss my shampoo, skip EGG dishes such as TELUR GORENG, SUP TELUR, SARDIN TELUR, SAYUR& TELUR, no nuts at all, ketchup, cannot bare myself under fan or aircond(which I actually did cos darn PANAS ba...huhu) and most of all ~~ I never thought I'll SLEEP ON BANANA LEAVES. 

Now I wonder... when la I will get better? God's will maybe kan.

My feelings are all mixed-up. BORED+SAD+ANXIOUS,ETC.

Oh God... it's ITCHY. Kieko said, she got this 3 times already. God, God, please... I don't want this anymore...